For as far back as I can remember along my spiritual path, the words trust and faith have accompanied me. Not only have they supported me, they have provided my greatest challenge. When life is flowing and I am on what seems to be the right path, those words are not required because I am living them. Then suddenly out of nowhere life shifts, and my safe haven crumbles. And I have to move on. Naturally I feel shaky even as I’m reminded of those words when life is no longer obvious and the unknown smiles upon me as a challenge whether trust and faith has truly sunk in. Can I relax while waiting for the next move to show up when it is not obvious what that is? Do I know that I will be looked after even as the rug has been ripped away?
Every so many years, life reminds me that I am not here forever, that my home is not fixed on this planet. The only real home I have is the one inside while I wait for a new outside home to appear. It always has been so why not now? The future remains unknown and I must wait for the next home to manifest. Who knows how long that will take or where it will be? How strong is my trust and faith? This is a test for sure. How the Universe loves to test me to find out how far I have come, how far I have evolved. I can say yes, I trust, but when nothing wants to show up, how deep is my faith? Will I be rewarded or not? There is no way to know until my new home and situation shows up. The Universe has infinite patience. Do I? And how it loves to test to find out what I am made of. I want to know that as well. All I can do is be here and trust while not forgetting faith.
